Julie,
I have read some of the other posts that you have written and received. First of all, I see that you are from Charlotte, NC. I lived there for 1 1/2 years and it is a very beautiful city with a lot of opportunity and great people. After looking at your picture that you have posted, I see that you are also beautiful. Don't sell yourself short just because you don't have great hair.
I do suggest that seek some counseling. Most people benefit from just talking to someone about what is bothering them.
Also, There are products on the market for female pattern baldness. They are called integration hairpieces. They are light and comfortable because they are just a netting structure that adds hair just where you need it. I would suggest you use the internet to search for a distributor or look up hair replacement in your area and they will likely have these products. This would be the most comfortable alternative.
Nothing is worth dying for.... I survived a brain aneurysm and that was 20 years after my alopecia areota started.
Find the positives in your life instead of focusing on things you feel are negative.
Everyone has negative things happen to them everyday, but you have to stand up and take control of yourself. Unfortunately, no one else can find happiness for you, you have to make your own.
Thank you for writing. I am pursuing a career in counseling and I wish you the best. Write again whenever you feel the need.