And I wonder why my hair keeps falling out

So the last time I blogged I was 3 months pregnant and my hair had started to fall out again. Well it decided to do that wonderful thing that alopecia areata does and grow back and give me hope. At one point it actually started to get really full and thick and i had no spots. Then my little pumpkin was born (Hailey Darlene Burley-Heslop Oct 31st, 2010 thats why we call her our pumpkin 8lbs 13oz she was a big pumpkin lol) and then i noticed the back of my hair line started to creep up and up and up. Then those wonderful spots that I did not miss started to pop up all over and now as it stands my hair is the worst it has been since I was diagnosed.

My eyebrows and eyelashes are completely gone and my hair is barely there. I look on this site at pictures of people with the same alopecia areata and it seems they all have more hair then me and just a few spots. I only have a few spots of hair and they all seem to have their eyebrows and eyelashes. So even on this site all though full of beautiful strong people I still feel kind of alone. My alopecia was triggered by stress as many are and now since the baby has been born well anyone with children can tell you that is stressful enough, but now I find out the horrible pain in my jaw is because i am now grinding my teeth in my sleeping and clenching my jaw which is caused by stress. My body hates stress lol. I have tried talking to a therapist and that doesn't help and try doing things I love and that doesnt help and try to relax and nothing seems to help

Now ontop of having a little one who is turning 6 months old I find out that when I am done my maternity leave I will probably not have a job to come back to. I work as a manager for a video/cellphone company and I have been informed that they are closing my store and that there are no available manager positions. My boyfriend does not make the greatest money working at a restaurant but he works hard. Thankfully we live with my parents (oh ya and that is insanely stressful with a new baby and my boyfriend and I) and they do not make us pay rent cause they are amazing but we still have a baby and bills we have to pay. We were looking at moving out when i went back to work and were super excited and something to look forward and now it is like someone has shattered that and we are going to be stuck her forever which i know we wont but it feels like that right now. It has been a very long stressful 2 years and just doesn't seem to be letting up. I really dont know how much more i can handle before I break.

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Comment by Tallgirl on April 21, 2011 at 11:20pm
My hair was there during pregnancy and childbirth, but then exited later, too. This is a good time for you to enjoy your Pumpkin while working on a career scheme. Ever think of checking out work with new networks and types of phones being developed now? Maybe you can get trained to be on the ground floor of a new technology and marketing plan. I got laid off of an art director position when 8 months pregnant, so I know what this doubt is like. However, I got new jobs, more education, and a whole new career after that. You can do this, when it is time.
Comment by Amanda Carter on April 22, 2011 at 4:32am
Danielle your life does sound pretty stressful at the moment! I am convinced my Alopecia was triggered by major stress, and I started with AA for a year and then developed AU. The weird thing is I was just thinking this morning, (after 5 years of AU!) losing the eyelashes and eyebrows is just downright unfair and cruel! I mean losing you hair is bad enough but to lose every hair on your body just seems a step too far. You are not alone, I am having a bad couple of weeks with dealing with my AU, I''ll get over it, I always do, life goes on, hair or no hair. For now though I am feeling very depressed, sad and pretty bereft, so I'm sending you all my love and sympathy and would love to come and give you a hug, because your life is tough at the minute, but things will get better, have hope, I'm still trying.
Amanda x
Comment by Teri C on April 22, 2011 at 9:33pm
I hung on to alot of my stress in my early days. You should go to your dentist and get a night guard to sleep with for clenching your jaw. It really helped me. I can't sleep without it now. As for stress try taking some vitamin
B-6, 1 or 2 in the mornings, that may help even things out alittle bit so it doesn't seem so bad. Don't take it at night though you won't be able to sleep! Good luck, I think as I got older stress got easier to handle!
Comment by Lisa-Lynn Marini on April 23, 2011 at 11:06am
I feel what your going through mine started when my son was born nine years ao, when I noticed haor falling out i figured it was all naturl, eventually it did get thick agn until last year I ket getting spots, and more spots, I would vocer it up with as much hairspray as possible and it seemed to do me justice until my sides started going then the crown of the head went and well when i went to my dermatologist he told me I had alopecia and there was nothing they could do for me ad my white blood cell couunt was way out of whack and it was treating my ahir as if it were a sickness, see white blood cells re there to fight off colds nd such mine fought off my hair like it wwas a desease, so after saying all that my white cells are all out of whack, and i'm trying very hard to accept who I am today even thogh its hard at times and I can sit and crt but I also need to remember as long as I have good health knock on wood, i should be grateful, hang in there gorl yor beautiful ( please excuse my writting i need my eyes checked they are blurry :(( thats all i need I also ate glasses,,lol,,,God bless you my friend (((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))
Comment by Amanda Carter on April 23, 2011 at 4:33pm
My hair fell out 7 years after my last son was born, I actually had a full head of hair until I was 35 years old, and then I had a big shock, I found out my dad wasn't my real dad, my real dad lived 7 miles up the road. I decided to meet him, and all hell let loose, literally! I have to say pregnancys didnt affect my hair at all, in fact until 35 I needed a double hair appointment because my hair was so thick, no kidding. Will have get some photos up, pre and post alopecia, trouble is, it only breaks my heart, my hair was my crown and glory...
Comment by Trish on April 25, 2011 at 2:25pm
Yes, I too regrew almost a full head of hair while I was pregnant only to lose it again when my child was born. My dad is convinced that the hormonal change in my body is what caused it to regrow, since it never did again. and Lisa-Lynn....because of our higher count of whiteblood cells (antibodies) I am also convinced that we are wayyyyyy healthier than most people. I rarely get sick and if I do, it doesnt last long. I often wonder if we are not better equiped to fight off many more diseases now. You dont hear very often of an Alopecia patient developing cancer right??? Just an idea?
Comment by Tallgirl on April 25, 2011 at 9:53pm
Trish, my whole family would get the flu every winter, and I wouldn't. I found out that yes, alopecians as a rule get sick less often than others.
Comment by Amanda Carter on April 26, 2011 at 4:06am
For approx 3 years I was totally AU, I hadn't a single hair on my body, and I never got a cold or even a sore throat (which was my weak point before) Then a year ago I started getting regrowth, not much, but a bit of hair on my head, a few blonde hairs on my arms, some underarm hair, anyways I am very slowly sprouting some hair, and I have had FOUR really bad head colds in the space of a year, and sore throats, shivering, aching type of bugs. There is something in this, our immune systems are working too hard, trying to protect us too much!
Comment by Trish on April 26, 2011 at 9:48am
Amanda, I'm sure of it too. I actually have had no need to go to a doctor in almost over 25yrs. The last time i saw one, I was pregnant with my daughter. Although, I'm thinking, its about time for at least a check up...lol

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