So - it has been a weird week.

First - I have been thinking very hard about the awesome things associated with AU such as the fact that I never, ever have a bad hair day. I have also realized when you are bald people seem to think you are prettier than before - are their expectations of beauty less than when you had hair? Like it is so shocking that a bald woman can be attractive? Not sure. They should look at this website and see all the breath taking pictures of bald women! Also noticed that I am less concerned with my weight (average) than before the total loss of hair - probably because again - who really cares as long as I am healthy???

Second weird thing - I ran into my ex-husband this weekend for the 1st time since our divorce (6 years ago!). We were both with our sons who are about the same age and he was with his son's Mom. I was without wig. Looked pretty good considering. I think he was slightly speechless - because what do you say to your bald ex-wife who you have seen or talked to in 6 years even though you live in the same town!?

Third - strangers keep coming to me and thanking me for being "so brave", "fighting the good fight", etc. In fact one very nice bald stranger came up to me at the grocery store yesterday and bear hugged me and said "we love you". Wow - I almost feel bad telling them I do not have cancer when I know they probably do (or did). I know thay are all very well intentioned and trying to be supportive. I don't want to make them feel bad that they have/had cancer and I do not. Plus then there is slight awkwardness after I explain the AU. Usually their reaction is a subtle look of pity for me, like "wow - at least mine will probably come back and there is a good explanation - sucks to be you". I smile "bravely" and tell them it's no big deal and I hope they are better soon (seems like such a lame thing to say). They say "I hope they (who?) find something for you too". Kind of ironic that these sick, but strong people seem to feel sorry for a fairly healthy me.

Had to get these off my chest - other "hairful" people don't quite get it! Have a Merry Christmas!