I'm new to this site, but not to this condition. I've been dealing with this solo for 20 yeas. As I'm reading some of the posts, I can only say WOW. Wow because for all of these years I've felt like I was the only one . I'm feeling so relieved and excited to be able to share my thoughts and feelings. Its as if I've been awakened from a long dream or should I say nightmare. I look forward to going through the healing process with others. As I look around I just haven't seen anyone who looks like ME and that's been rough. But now I can finally BREATHE..........!!!