So I am totally over the Sunday night blues. I went for a good run this morning and then had a very productive day at work. My brother and I are going to see The Cure tonight, so that should be fun. I'm struggling though with not being in a relationship. I waste so much energy thinking about it. energy that could be used to do a million other things. but I'm stuck focused on it. almost all of my friends are married and many have a kid or two. Part of me thinks I haven't found the right guy to date. part of me thinks I'm really not looking for the right guy for fear that he will leave me when he finds out about the AU. But at the end of the day, I am very thankful for my supportive family and friends... and this website. it feels like a real community.