Hi Mabaker! Good to 'meet' you! I had a lovely weekend thanks - hope you did as well.
Well done on the sponsored head shave - that's ace!! And so lovely that your son did it too! x
hi mabarker,
I have learned so much being here just reading and writting too something I never seen coming but the love I have for all theses people who are just like us I never even knew about as I was falling down a deep hole that promised to cover me up has opened and I find I am not quit as ugly here as I first thought I read about the pain others are going through and it hurts my heart so bad that I can't help everyone.I don't know if I told you or not but my not having hair anymore is just the start for me I was in a bad car wreck at the age of 34 and they said I would never walk but I do the men who hit me were both drunk and high and red a red light and hit me one man behind me came to y aid called my boss who was only one block away and tried to call my soon to be hubby my we were not even married then we loved each other but one bad marriage under my belt I wanted to be sure so for two years we lived together and two months after my wreck we were married oh trust me i did everything in me to kick him to the kirb I loved him enough to let him go but he would not leave and when he said he would push me in a wheelchair for the rest of our lives if that is what it took then he would do it there have been many times when my legs will not hold me and down I go but I also know when it happens he will be there to catch me or to pick me up when I go down.Life is funny one day wonderful one ok but never dull and I thank you for starting me on my way to finding my real self.
Hi Mabaker,
I find myself sometimes fighting with myself because everyone is so far ahead of me when I was so dumb thinking this is only me I didn't know there was a whole world out there with the same thing I have and going through the same thing I am I thought I was alone and being made fun of is just one of the things I go through when I see my mom.I thought I was crying alone but I find I am not the only one and want to help and want to dry the tears people shead over this.I know you don't know me but you give me hope and understanding and I thank you so much you really are so very pretty.
Hi again Mabaker again I wanted to tell you how sorry i am for the things in my life i dumped on you i guess it's because for a year now i have not been able to be with my only liveing family my Mom and Sister my son and family we had to move from our home of 23 years move to a new place i don't know anybody here and feel so alone so all the junk i wrote i promise i will keep to myself and wish i knew how to do things on here but i don't and may just leave because i can't figure out how to get to places or really what i should be doing i didn't even know that people knew i was even on here i thought i was alone.
My how Pretty you are I would put a picture of myself up but first of all I don't know how second I really want to make good friends here ones that are always here and knowing they will not be leaving I have so much it feels but I really have nothing now nothing but love and resepct for people that are not scared to walk out there fron't door because of what others may say what brought me down so long ago it feels is being told to go home because I have no hair truth is If I dressed like a small boy I could maybe pull it off and nobody would know I am a woman just no hair but my big strong husband would never let that happen he knows me so well before I say a word he knows what is up with me before I know myself.
It's cold outside I can see frost around my window from my chair I see it is My Dad's best time of the seasons the leaves are turning and brown ones left on the ground.
I am sorry I wish not to put anyone not for one second in a bad frame of mine it's just I truley don't know how to go forward it's as if it is a memory my mind has locked away I remember so much but also lost all mf my emories a cold day in 2001 Christmas Eve night cooking and waitting for all my family to come as it was our time to let the little ones open there gifts and then on Christmas Day they would get gifts again from Santa but that's as far as I can remember now is things I have been told so many times and still to this day they remind me next thing I knew I opened my eyes and seen a man in a white coat looking at me asking so many thigs who I was if I had family things like that but I didn't know anything at all not my name if I was married if I had kids nothing it was all gone but yet I was not scared not one bit I knew this Man was a doctor but didn't know why I knew that then they start bringing people by my room I didn't know anyone a tall man standing by my bed holding my hand felt strange and I wished he would leave the doctor finely took all the people out of my room but I didn't here what was said the last thing I seen in the hospital was a very pretty woman came to my door and sshe spoke to me she had blond hair long like mine and dressed in white she stood by my door the doctor was gone and she asked me if I knew her I smiled and said yes you are my angel and you have come back to take me back to heaven God didn't want me here on earth after all she had a ter rool down her cheek and she said no baby it's me your sister all of a suden I knew everyone the tall man holding my hand was my husband and My Dad that had such pain in his eyes it was my whole family and I knew them all but did forget dates to this day I still don't have I was told by family and doctors I had a grand mal seizure and fell in our bathroom only to be caught by my daughter in law who also was fixing her hair and she said she was screaming for my husband and son who finely heard her my husband said he tried to stop my shaking by laying on top of me and put his thumb in my mouth so I wouldn't break my teeth or hurt myself anymore something he will never forget because they say I bit down so hard he carrys the mark of my teeth to this day on this thumb he siad I stopped skaking for a couple of seconts and reached up and patted his thick beard and said in a babys voice I told him I loved him then closed my eyes and again was shaking the ambulance came only a block from our home got me in the ambulance and that is where I died they say my Mom was in the fron't of the ambulance with the driver and the emt guy in the back with me we never got out of our driveway till I was gone I don't know for how long but they say I had lost all my vital signs but yet I live and have to ask myself everyday why because I am nothing special so many surgies from my car wreck I have lost count and yet they tell me I may still need more but I am tired of this so put a stop on the surgery becuse none has ever helped just made it worse,
Honest to goodness I am so sorry I have written all this please forgive me and if you know how to dump this mabaker please do it I would not want you or others to know all this just never talked about any of this to anyone.
Take care and God Bless you and I am so happy you have made it through all the things in your life and your right about family they will keep you strong I am sorry about what I wrote please forgive me
I hope I am doing this right I always fear the things I don't know one of which is this PC you would think I would know how to use these things but this is all new and I pray everyone out there knows I will do my best but any help you wish to give me I will take in learning how to do things in this strange world of PC land and so glad you have added me as a friend but have to let you know I love people and my heart has been hurt by loseing two people the first of my very close family and now there are only three left one counting myself.
I wish I knew more but fell like I am just makeing a mastake and I want to do thigs right so bad but heres hopeing I will learn from all you kind people.
hello and thank you for your kind words and hope that you will also know my warm wishes for you as well I know so little about the Pc world that I am unsure if you will ever get this it just said in my email box at home you had sent this to me but I had to do something to keep getting them I tried but didn't find out how to do that.Know I am a kind sole and my heart is very tender as I fell everyone I love are all sleeping away.
Hi You, ta for the add! Being in London isn't that bad.... is it?? :) And it'd be cool to converse, so feel free to drop (or spin!) me a line anytime!
Later! - Norm :)
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You're welcome and thank you too :)
Thank You, I haven't been on this site much lately I kinda forgot that I was featured LOL, how are you doing?
Thank you so much, I'm glad you like my blog :-) xx
Hello there beautiful...sorry It took me so long to reply...I haven't been on here in a while. Praying that your dreams come true in 2012.
Thanks for the add and a 'HaPpy New year to you too' :) I see you are UK based.. yay! Hope all is grOOvy with you :) x
Thank you :)
Well done on the sponsored head shave - that's ace!! And so lovely that your son did it too! x
I have learned so much being here just reading and writting too something I never seen coming but the love I have for all theses people who are just like us I never even knew about as I was falling down a deep hole that promised to cover me up has opened and I find I am not quit as ugly here as I first thought I read about the pain others are going through and it hurts my heart so bad that I can't help everyone.I don't know if I told you or not but my not having hair anymore is just the start for me I was in a bad car wreck at the age of 34 and they said I would never walk but I do the men who hit me were both drunk and high and red a red light and hit me one man behind me came to y aid called my boss who was only one block away and tried to call my soon to be hubby my we were not even married then we loved each other but one bad marriage under my belt I wanted to be sure so for two years we lived together and two months after my wreck we were married oh trust me i did everything in me to kick him to the kirb I loved him enough to let him go but he would not leave and when he said he would push me in a wheelchair for the rest of our lives if that is what it took then he would do it there have been many times when my legs will not hold me and down I go but I also know when it happens he will be there to catch me or to pick me up when I go down.Life is funny one day wonderful one ok but never dull and I thank you for starting me on my way to finding my real self.
I find myself sometimes fighting with myself because everyone is so far ahead of me when I was so dumb thinking this is only me I didn't know there was a whole world out there with the same thing I have and going through the same thing I am I thought I was alone and being made fun of is just one of the things I go through when I see my mom.I thought I was crying alone but I find I am not the only one and want to help and want to dry the tears people shead over this.I know you don't know me but you give me hope and understanding and I thank you so much you really are so very pretty.
It's cold outside I can see frost around my window from my chair I see it is My Dad's best time of the seasons the leaves are turning and brown ones left on the ground.
I am sorry I wish not to put anyone not for one second in a bad frame of mine it's just I truley don't know how to go forward it's as if it is a memory my mind has locked away I remember so much but also lost all mf my emories a cold day in 2001 Christmas Eve night cooking and waitting for all my family to come as it was our time to let the little ones open there gifts and then on Christmas Day they would get gifts again from Santa but that's as far as I can remember now is things I have been told so many times and still to this day they remind me next thing I knew I opened my eyes and seen a man in a white coat looking at me asking so many thigs who I was if I had family things like that but I didn't know anything at all not my name if I was married if I had kids nothing it was all gone but yet I was not scared not one bit I knew this Man was a doctor but didn't know why I knew that then they start bringing people by my room I didn't know anyone a tall man standing by my bed holding my hand felt strange and I wished he would leave the doctor finely took all the people out of my room but I didn't here what was said the last thing I seen in the hospital was a very pretty woman came to my door and sshe spoke to me she had blond hair long like mine and dressed in white she stood by my door the doctor was gone and she asked me if I knew her I smiled and said yes you are my angel and you have come back to take me back to heaven God didn't want me here on earth after all she had a ter rool down her cheek and she said no baby it's me your sister all of a suden I knew everyone the tall man holding my hand was my husband and My Dad that had such pain in his eyes it was my whole family and I knew them all but did forget dates to this day I still don't have I was told by family and doctors I had a grand mal seizure and fell in our bathroom only to be caught by my daughter in law who also was fixing her hair and she said she was screaming for my husband and son who finely heard her my husband said he tried to stop my shaking by laying on top of me and put his thumb in my mouth so I wouldn't break my teeth or hurt myself anymore something he will never forget because they say I bit down so hard he carrys the mark of my teeth to this day on this thumb he siad I stopped skaking for a couple of seconts and reached up and patted his thick beard and said in a babys voice I told him I loved him then closed my eyes and again was shaking the ambulance came only a block from our home got me in the ambulance and that is where I died they say my Mom was in the fron't of the ambulance with the driver and the emt guy in the back with me we never got out of our driveway till I was gone I don't know for how long but they say I had lost all my vital signs but yet I live and have to ask myself everyday why because I am nothing special so many surgies from my car wreck I have lost count and yet they tell me I may still need more but I am tired of this so put a stop on the surgery becuse none has ever helped just made it worse,
Honest to goodness I am so sorry I have written all this please forgive me and if you know how to dump this mabaker please do it I would not want you or others to know all this just never talked about any of this to anyone.
Take care and God Bless you and I am so happy you have made it through all the things in your life and your right about family they will keep you strong I am sorry about what I wrote please forgive me
I wish I knew more but fell like I am just makeing a mastake and I want to do thigs right so bad but heres hopeing I will learn from all you kind people.
Im mari from japan
Thanks for add.
I cant speak English very well ...
Later! - Norm :)
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