today, this morning (friday morning, here in Germany..), my husband
surprised me with asking me, maybe to cheer me up a little?, in a
very sweet way, if there was a "chance for us" to have a baby..
We had discussed this "question" several times, and so-far, he
always had said, he might feel it´s "too-early" for us to think about
it ... in a more-serious way than just like "romantic dreams"..
and today, this morning, he said, "you are so beautiful, so sexy..",
and a bit later, he asked, a bit shy, "could we have a baby together.."?
I mean, it´s nearly-exactly a week ago, that I lost my head-hair, and
nearly-every morning, I feel like combing some of my hair.. but there´s
none of it any-longer.. these are problems, I have to cope and live with..
and now, he asked me such a crazy-and-romantic-and-wonderful question..
I mean, I felt surprised, happy, touched.. but: I did not want to answer, at once..
I said, I`d have to think about his idea... and it seemed, he might understand what
I mean.. of-course I do love him, and of-course, under normal circumstances, I
wouldn´t have hesitated one-more-minute.. but now, with my "illness", my bald
head.. I don´t feel "secure" at the moment.. and with his question, though I did and
do find it so romantic!, I am not sure, was it a helpful idea of him...