so since being pregnant i have had massive regrowth.
my eyelashes are back and i'm going to buy mascara this week! the hair on my head is back and some even on the top! i keep shaving it so it will come back thicker and more even.

I'm now on more medication for my lupus and will be weaning off the steroids, i guess when i'm off them my hair might fall out again. or when my hormones go back to normal my hair could fall out. or it might not.

i don't want to hope to much. but i didn't think it would keep growing or grow at all! its been 11 years since i lost it!
and i didn't previously have any regrowth!

so i'm amazed and some days annoyed because i'm not use to it. not sure how i feel about it some days.


The other issue is Eric. he is 6 weeks old now. with beautiful Auburn hair just like mine. Adam (husband) says he has hair just like mine! the same length and all haha!
when he is waking up sometimes he is touching his hair, its so cute and beautiful and i adore it!
but some fear and guilt rises in me which adam doesn't understand. the what ifs! i desperately wanted Eric to have adams dark thick hair to relive myself of the fear he might get alopecia. when he popped out a ranga i got this fear almost immeditely! i want the best for my son. i want him to be happy and healthy and loved.

my alopecia when i was 14 brought on such depression and to think that i could have passed on alopecia or lupus or anything is just dreadful. its easier for me now. i have a great life and am very happy. i've accepted the alopecia, getting better about the lupus. Even if i lost my hair again it wouldn't be the same as the shock and loss that i went through the first time. that utter devastation to my young life i felt.

i just don't want him to go through anything like that. sometimes i feel alot of motherhood is worry and guilt!

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Comment by Katie C on September 26, 2010 at 2:55am
Ha! When I read the word "ranga" I knew you had to be aussie too! =) Where abouts are you? I don't have any children myself but I'd be lying if I said I didn't worry about passing it on to my future children too... I think the best thing we can be is be the most supportive we can be if it does happen. Eric is lucky to have a mother as loving, strong and special as you. Just enjoy the new baby (he sounds adorable) and the new hair, and cross that bridge if it comes. xo
Comment by Alison on September 26, 2010 at 3:11am
thanks katie, i'm in perth!
Comment by sharon on September 26, 2010 at 11:44am
Hi Allison congrats on your beautful new baby, I have AU and I wanted to know did you have lupus first or did you have alopecia first? How did they diagnosis your lupus? Reason why I ask is that I got tested for it also but came out negative do you go into remission if you have lupus?

God BLess
Sharon
Comment by Alison on September 26, 2010 at 9:33pm
i got alopecia first. but i didn't have the test for lupus until 8 or 9 years after the alopecia diagnosis so i could have had lupus the whole time. but i've been told the hair loss with lupus is typically on the top of the head.
you can go into remission with lupus but i think thats more for people who don't have the arthritis. i don't really know.

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