Last Weekend I decided to show my boyfriend what I look like when I am bald because he was getting frustrated about me crying because I have alopecia. He has always told me that he didn't care that I had alopecia, he only cared about how it made me feel. Sometimes I know that its hard for others to have empathy for what I'm going through everyday but they can be sympathetic. I only want to feel good about myself and I can't always because all I can think about is not having my own hair that I was born with. I have a photo in my room of what I looked like in high school; when I had my own hair. My boyfriend said I should take the photo down and take a recent picture of myself and put it up. That way, I can focus on who I am now instead of focusing on the past.

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Comment by Tallgirl on March 28, 2011 at 12:18pm
Huh. Come to think of it, I have NO pix up of myself with my own hair...that was another lifetime!
Comment by Shereka Moore on March 28, 2011 at 1:48pm
Thank you Stacey. I know its important to take pride in who I am today. If dwelling on the past makes me depressed and it does then I know I should stop putting new self down. I forgot the picture was there until my boyfriend mentioned it and probably without thinking about I was thinking back to a time when I was so proud of looks. I started going to a therapist because the torture, I sent myself through, seemed so bad. It's time to think about how grateful I should be for the things I have.
Comment by Shereka Moore on March 28, 2011 at 1:53pm
Also thank you Tallgirl. It's been a while since I last logged onto alopeciaworld. You're right that was a different lifetime. So long ago and still fresh in my memory. I really need to move forward instead of standing still. I will find a way to commend the new me everyday. I think I might buy a camera and take some new pics of myself and post them around my apartment. LOL :-) Or put them in a photo album
Comment by Elizabeth on March 28, 2011 at 7:44pm
Im happy to hear that you ladies are accepting yourselves...I on the other hand...still find myself thinking about what my head will look like as my completely bald head begins to regrow hair in patches and don't want to be seen that way...i say this to expess my hopeful attitude that my previous state of having a full head of hair will return.
Comment by Lee on March 29, 2011 at 5:19am
I have a pic up from high school where I have long blonde hair, and Im tan, and thin. My fiance looks at it and says it doesnt even look like me ; ( He is not trying to make me feel bad. He actually likes me better the way I am now. I think I looked much better then tho. Its the eyelashes I miss most!
Comment by Supportive Mom on March 29, 2011 at 10:36am
I just want to say that it is awesome, the boyfriend you got here is so supportive of you. Im sorry what your going through and feeling. My daughter is 9 and going through this. Im happy to hear that you have a good man in your life though. Never give up.
Comment by Shereka Moore on March 29, 2011 at 10:36am
@ Elizabeth I too want a full head of hair again and that's y I keep the picture up in my room. It plays its role to keep hope alive but I think it also keeps me depressed sometime. Its hard to move forward I know, but dwelling on something that might not happen is not always a good thing. I have to learn to love the person I am now even tho its so hard :_(
Comment by Shereka Moore on March 29, 2011 at 10:40am
@ Lee my boyfriend just wants me to be happy with who I am too :-) We have been dating on and off since July of last year. He says my anxiety and depression is getting worse bcuz i don't give myself credit at all. All I can think about is not having hair, he even tried to tell me how beautiful I am and I just blew his comment out the window, that hurt his feelings. I keep making him fell bad bcuz I feel bad about who I am.
Comment by Bald and Fabulous AKA Terri on March 29, 2011 at 10:59am
I have a few pics around when I have hair but they are with my horse at horse shows so I dont really focus on me in them. Occasional I do notice me, and see me with hair half way down my back and yes I get sad and depressed knowing that I will never be that person again. But I have decided that I really want to do a professional glamour picture done of me bald. Just for myself, to remind me how far I have come and with the proper airbrushing, how beautiful I am. LOL
Remember how far you have come and try not to focus on the hair loss of it. The knowledge you have now, the support and true friends you have found and how much stronger you have become.
Comment by Hope on March 29, 2011 at 8:53pm
I know Lee is trying to make you feel better by telling you you're beautiful, my husband always does the same, but I think at times it just hard for us to believe it when we can't always see it for ourselves?? It's also frustrating because no matter how hard our loves one try, they just will never completely understand what we feel inside! Good luck and just try to believe what Lee tells you, I truly believe if he didn't mean it....he wouldn't say it.

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