My level of acceptance toward the general ineptitude of my white blood cells is as inconsistent as my motivation to study.

More often than not, I could not give a fraction of a shit that my hair is basically absent. My reasoning there is mostly along the lines of "What would be different if I had it anyway?"

Looking pretty? Where does that get me? Friends? No. A job? No. A date? Maybe, but that's really not a priority at the moment due to my innate lack of skills in that department unrelated to the no hair thing. I could give you the whole, "You're beautiful no matter what" speech, or the "All that matters is your health and that you love yourself" ramble, but you've heard that a million times. For the times when I don't care about being bald, the key is realizing hair is hair and although it may not be ideal, it's really not that big of a deal.

However, there are also times when I talk a big game, but I'm actually right pissed about the whole situation. It comes in sporadic spurts, just general anger and fist shaking in the direction of my immune system. I get so, extraordinarily, beyond annoyed when people look at me sadly and pityingly and say things like, "It was doing so well" or "You looked so pretty" or the classic "You could always start wearing wigs again." Bruh. That's incredibly irritating to me and it sends me in a spiral of negative outlooks on the whole situation.

And as quickly as it started, that anger will dissipate back into zero shits given. This is mostly attributed to me having better things to worry about, such as the aforementioned studying. Otherwise, if you can do something about it, like getting the shots or some other treatment, do it, get something done. Distract yourself with more important things.

This was pretty aimless. I guess the point is that although the acceptance comes and goes in waves, you can learn to maintain it and bounce back.

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Comment by Dianna 845 on March 3, 2016 at 9:33pm
Hello, thanks for your thoughts. I'm new to wearing wigs. $2000 later I find a better one that I don't feel like a complete alien in. Yes its nicer than the hair I had. Still isn't mine. This has altered my life much. From the digging in my head. The itch. Me not really wearing make up or daily shower anymore. I'd love to have my hair back but its not happening. I will never go bald in public. That's just me. I dont really care if people know as long as it doesn't look too wiggy. I dislike having to strategically place my glasses on..I dont feel very attractive anymore. Age is certainly catching up to me. So not sure what's harder, growing up bald or having to adapt in my 50's..just some random thoughts.
Comment by Lexi on March 4, 2016 at 9:45pm

What wig are you now wearing, Dianna?  I know, Alopecia sucks

Comment by Dianna 845 on March 4, 2016 at 10:51pm
Hey Lexi.I am wearing "tatem" in creamy blonde by Amore.
Comment by Lexi on March 5, 2016 at 6:22pm

Like that one!!  Good choice....

Comment by Dianna 845 on March 5, 2016 at 6:24pm
Just bought 2nd one on sale. Worried about weather getting hot. I'm gone back to work Monday
Comment by Lexi on March 6, 2016 at 12:10pm

I imagine that is gonna be a hot one to wear, if and when it truly will get HOT in PA.  LOL.  I am in FL and can't say the same.....I imagine the back will be tangling and frizzing.  That is the trouble with synthetics, esp. longer styles that hit your neck line area. 

Comment by Dianna 845 on March 6, 2016 at 1:10pm
I'm going to look into "Haley",do u think that will work for summer? I cannot wear the real short styles. I look awful. This condition is causing me so much anxiety and sadness
Comment by Lexi on March 7, 2016 at 5:56pm

Noriko's in my opinion are very HOT wigs.  Look for something that says open cap, and I think they even have some long styles somewhere, just not in that brand.  Then color of course is the other challenge....I am blonde, too, and it is a battle....

http://www.jonrenau.com/about-open-caps

Comment by Lexi on March 7, 2016 at 5:58pm

http://www.jonrenau.com/wigs/osolite/angelique   This one is long, maybe try it for summer?

Comment by Sharalexis on March 16, 2016 at 9:05pm

Make sure you are getting the proper minerals and have your physician check your thyroid, especially after the age 30 years.

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