I have had alopecia for a while as many of you know lol, but I still cant bring myself to say ' this is how i am now' I mean i see a lot of ppl fulling embracing their baldness, and loving it and all that sort of thing , but I cant help but feel like I'm missing something, and to be honest its quite annoying when ppl are all like ' this is me, now i love being bald because i can switch up my hair wig( but i do acknowledge that everyone is free to feel how they want about alopecia), there is nothing 'fun' about wearing a wig especially in the summer when the stupid thing can blow off and ur sweating underneath it . I have gone out bald on campus(just once) and to that modeling event , but it doesnt actually mean i have fully embraced being bald. It felt liberating yes, but the stares were annoying.As a female I'm not going to sit here and say yea i enjoy being bald, (and not having eyelashes/eyebrows or whatever), because I absolutely hate it. I also hate when ppl constantly shove the idea of going/walking around bald down my throat ( in the summer) when thats not what im comfortable doing, I mean its SOOO easy to talk like that when ur not the one going through it. i'm sick of hearing 'bald and beautiful' or 'hair or no hair you are still you' like just shut it because those comments really don't help.I'm just not comfortable w'/ myself anymore,if i wear a scarf ppl stare, a hat they stare. I only feel 'normal' if im wearing a wig, but the summers in dc can be sooo humid so that wont even be an option.
rant over! :)