So my eyebrows are beginning to fall out really bad now. I'm going to the dermatologist on Tuesday to learn my fate and see weather or not I have Alopecia or some type of other condition that could be cured. No bald spots on my head, but I fear that will eventually change. My eyelashes are beginning to thin as well, and I'm Trying to prepare myself for the inevitable. None of my friends know that I'm facing this condition, I'm to embarrassed to say anything plus I know a lot of people will disassociate themselves with me. My mother knows but she is not very sympathetic at all, she could care less to be honest. I guess it's because she is in denial. I'm scared, but at the same time I know that it is nothing I can control. I just want to hide in the house, under the blankets, where the world can't see me. Who would love me looking like this? I honestly feel like I'm transforming into some type of monster or creature, for I can barely remember what I use to look like. I'm starting to wish I could just move to some area where only alopecians lived, at least I would be among my OWN kind and not feel like such an alien. Mentally I'm not even prepared to deal with the worlds reaction to me. I already suffer with depression so this just makes matters worse. I have no type of support system at all, so dealing with this alone makes me just want to kill myself. Everyone around me is ignoring my pain, and I find myself in tears just writing this. I told my mom my hair loss is getting worse and she just ignores me. It's heart breaking. I pray for strength but I'm only getting weaker. Just because I'm losing my hair doesn't mean my heart is gone. And it is hurting.