Carmella's Posts - Alopecia World2024-03-29T02:06:37ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmellahttps://storage.ning.com/topology/rest/1.0/file/get/2192193107?profile=RESIZE_48X48&width=48&height=48&crop=1%3A1https://alopeciaworld.com/profiles/blog/feed?user=16hmsgrvl8spx&xn_auth=noGroantag:alopeciaworld.com,2009-01-26:2022678:BlogPost:2144802009-01-26T17:30:00.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
So I went out to the bar with my husband to listen to his friends band. The band was ok, the venue was crappy so I couldn't really understand the lyrics, but hey. I only drank two beers the whole time we were there and we went to bed shortly after getting home. It was a pretty relaxing night.<br />
Then I woke up about 5:45 in the morning with a feeling like a flaming knife was lodged in my throat. This used to happen when I went to a bar, because smoking was permitted in Oregon until January this…
So I went out to the bar with my husband to listen to his friends band. The band was ok, the venue was crappy so I couldn't really understand the lyrics, but hey. I only drank two beers the whole time we were there and we went to bed shortly after getting home. It was a pretty relaxing night.<br />
Then I woke up about 5:45 in the morning with a feeling like a flaming knife was lodged in my throat. This used to happen when I went to a bar, because smoking was permitted in Oregon until January this year. Realizing it wasn't from the second hand inhalation I decided I probably slept with my mouth open and it was just dry so I went upstairs to get a drink. That didn't help it either.<br />
When I was attending another college there was an out break of meningitis that originated from a bar and one student died - another had several amputations. I decided to go to the ER (why is it I always get sick after hours or a Sunday?) and my husband took me in.<br />
By the time we were all ready and there I had developed a headache and my ears felt stuffed up. The doctor asked me if I had the flu shot this year and I didn't so he dubbed it the flu. But we're watching for changes that could indicated it is infectious mono.<br />
I do have the body ache, head ache, a mild not too often cough, the sore throat is still here - but I just have a feeling that something else is going on here. I don't have a fever or chills ... Hmmm<br />
To be continued ...Bad day - over for the moment.tag:alopeciaworld.com,2009-01-23:2022678:BlogPost:2125112009-01-23T22:51:20.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
I work tonight so I don't know why I'm up, just to see how everyone is doing I suppose. I'll catch a nap here in a minute. Thanks to everyone for their ever - sweet comments and support. Love you guys.<br />
Have a beautiful weekend.<br />
XOXO<br />
CAR
I work tonight so I don't know why I'm up, just to see how everyone is doing I suppose. I'll catch a nap here in a minute. Thanks to everyone for their ever - sweet comments and support. Love you guys.<br />
Have a beautiful weekend.<br />
XOXO<br />
CARHave you ever thought?tag:alopeciaworld.com,2009-01-22:2022678:BlogPost:2110242009-01-22T05:00:00.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
J.H.C.!!! I'm never going to make it. I'm incapable of securing sanity for anyone at this point. I'm angry and disappointed. I refuse to believe this is real. My family would rather I die or be a goddess - stupid baldness not giving me super powers.<br />
I wish I could be saved - not by a religion but a prince -saved.<br />
Am I the only one suffering in this moment the you will never do any better syndrome?<br />
XOXO<br />
...<br />
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P.S. I wish I never had children to spare them my pain and strange looks.
J.H.C.!!! I'm never going to make it. I'm incapable of securing sanity for anyone at this point. I'm angry and disappointed. I refuse to believe this is real. My family would rather I die or be a goddess - stupid baldness not giving me super powers.<br />
I wish I could be saved - not by a religion but a prince -saved.<br />
Am I the only one suffering in this moment the you will never do any better syndrome?<br />
XOXO<br />
...<br />
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P.S. I wish I never had children to spare them my pain and strange looks.Stage Makeuptag:alopeciaworld.com,2009-01-20:2022678:BlogPost:2093892009-01-20T19:29:07.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
So I'm taking this online course about stage makeup. I did my first assigned look yesterday and I wanted to post the picture here, but I can find the danged files. (Does this have something to do with the pink lemonade I spilled in my laptop two nights ago? - Probably). At any rate before they disappeared I made a slide show and it's at my youtube account if anyone wants to check them out.<br />
Also I don't know if I mentioned this but I am renting a house that is for sale. It sucks because the…
So I'm taking this online course about stage makeup. I did my first assigned look yesterday and I wanted to post the picture here, but I can find the danged files. (Does this have something to do with the pink lemonade I spilled in my laptop two nights ago? - Probably). At any rate before they disappeared I made a slide show and it's at my youtube account if anyone wants to check them out.<br />
Also I don't know if I mentioned this but I am renting a house that is for sale. It sucks because the owner said she'd raise the price so no one would be interested, but she didn't. So now they're showing the house like every other day and FAILING to give up the 24 hour notice that was contracted. When I protest the become pushy and insist on coming. Today even the troll schedule at 1:30 pm (with 24 hour notice) then she called this morning to inform me that she would be here at 10 am instead. PLUS!!! on her way out the door she informed me that someone else would be showing it at 4:00 pm today which was the first I heard of that. I have half a mind to not be home, except I am already entertaining at that hour! *SCREAM*<br />
I better start looking for a new house.<br />
Much love to you all,<br />
CAR<br />
P.S. If you are struggling with alopecia I realize I may seem brass and uncaring to you, but I really am not - it's just the way I deal with things for myself. I truely do care for you and will always lend an ear, believe it or not I do understand and I would take away your suffering if I could. So please don't be afraid to approach me just because I run around bald like I don't give a hoot.New for the New year?tag:alopeciaworld.com,2009-01-19:2022678:BlogPost:2086192009-01-19T18:19:47.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
Well not exactly. I'm still lazy, but maybe just a little less. I haven't been exercising daily as I'd planned and we failed at 30 days of no spending, but we're going to give that another try. I quit my job, for fear of being sued by a psychopath (no literally a pyschopath who is sue happy) I know that she'd lose, but I don't want to explain at every interview why I went to court. I've got to get another job. I'm very behind on my school work this term. I apologize for not being around as…
Well not exactly. I'm still lazy, but maybe just a little less. I haven't been exercising daily as I'd planned and we failed at 30 days of no spending, but we're going to give that another try. I quit my job, for fear of being sued by a psychopath (no literally a pyschopath who is sue happy) I know that she'd lose, but I don't want to explain at every interview why I went to court. I've got to get another job. I'm very behind on my school work this term. I apologize for not being around as often as I'd like.<br />
Much love and best wishes for all!<br />
XOXO<br />
CAR<br />
P.S. Thanks for everyone keeping track of me on youtube. I know it's a pain in the rump to be all over the web and I will try to post here more often.Feels like my head is spinningtag:alopeciaworld.com,2009-01-09:2022678:BlogPost:1982652009-01-09T02:26:42.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
School, Work, Jury duty, Family, Friends and Intraweb? My word I've been busy and had a serious lack of sleep too! Everything is going OK so far though. Hope everyone else is enjoying their new year. I better go work out before the shower as I've missed two days in a row due to lack of time/sleep.<br />
Love<br />
CaR
School, Work, Jury duty, Family, Friends and Intraweb? My word I've been busy and had a serious lack of sleep too! Everything is going OK so far though. Hope everyone else is enjoying their new year. I better go work out before the shower as I've missed two days in a row due to lack of time/sleep.<br />
Love<br />
CaRSometimes LOL is inappropriatetag:alopeciaworld.com,2009-01-03:2022678:BlogPost:1940352009-01-03T06:53:05.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
Like earlier when I posted a blog about my husband not being motivated to take control of his life and being skeptical that he's going to succeed and I 'LOLed' it off. Well I just published his second video on youtube (I never watch them first and he does one take no edit) It's worse that I thought, the man is practically giving up. How do I motivate that? How do I stay motivated myself at the same time?<br />
ARGH
Like earlier when I posted a blog about my husband not being motivated to take control of his life and being skeptical that he's going to succeed and I 'LOLed' it off. Well I just published his second video on youtube (I never watch them first and he does one take no edit) It's worse that I thought, the man is practically giving up. How do I motivate that? How do I stay motivated myself at the same time?<br />
ARGHSuper Excitement!!tag:alopeciaworld.com,2009-01-02:2022678:BlogPost:1935952009-01-02T21:11:03.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
I know I know I haven't been around a lot lately ... I'm going to make an honest effort to try harder in 2009. I'm SO SO excited for this new year - I feel energized. Plus I'm ready to reveal my exciting stuff.... *drum roll*. I have convinced my husband to really dedicate to weight loss *claps*. In fact we've even started a youtube channel that will track our progress. I'm thrilled that he's agreed to this, because making a public announcement of your goals is proven to increase success rate.…
I know I know I haven't been around a lot lately ... I'm going to make an honest effort to try harder in 2009. I'm SO SO excited for this new year - I feel energized. Plus I'm ready to reveal my exciting stuff.... *drum roll*. I have convinced my husband to really dedicate to weight loss *claps*. In fact we've even started a youtube channel that will track our progress. I'm thrilled that he's agreed to this, because making a public announcement of your goals is proven to increase success rate. Even better having an audience will provide support yeah! A couple of our friends are in on it too and we've decided to use aliases. Well I just followed suit really, so I picked Riot, cute huh?<br />
If you have a youtube account you can see me there too now! I put the link in my website.<br />
I'm not sure how many, if any of you, know about my hubby so here's the gist: He's gained a lot of weight very quickly and subsequently is hypertensive with high cholesterol and pre-diabetic at twenty-five. He also suffered TIA two weeks ago related to all this. So it's very important to me and my family that he make the changes that will save his life.The channel isn't only dedicated to this new years resolution though. We hope to do just fun stuff - regular vlogging - maybe some skits you know.<br />
Well now that I've gotten that off of my chest TELL ME ... WHAT IS YOUR NEW YEARS RESOLUTION? Also do you have a plan to stick to it? I always fail, but this year I think with the four of us behind the channel for support and any audience we get we can do it! (Hubby is skeptical I think - in his video he says something like "so we'll see how long this last" LOL!!)<br />
Let me know if I can help you with your goals in anyway. I love and miss you all - gosh it's good to be back!<br />
XOXO<br />
CAR<br />
P.S. I swear like a pirate so my videos may not be appropriate for kids.Happy New Year all!!tag:alopeciaworld.com,2009-01-01:2022678:BlogPost:1928212009-01-01T22:05:05.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
Hi guys, it's Carmella, remember me? I'm the bald one with the sassy attitude ... oh right - I don't stand out that way here ... hehehehe. I'm the one who thinks that sunglasses = love, in that case. I've got a lot going on right now and have for a while. I have some really exciting news but I'm not quite ready to release it yet so patience please. Thank you all so much for staying my friends and not giving up on me when I went AWOL. I appreciate all your lovely comments and messages even when…
Hi guys, it's Carmella, remember me? I'm the bald one with the sassy attitude ... oh right - I don't stand out that way here ... hehehehe. I'm the one who thinks that sunglasses = love, in that case. I've got a lot going on right now and have for a while. I have some really exciting news but I'm not quite ready to release it yet so patience please. Thank you all so much for staying my friends and not giving up on me when I went AWOL. I appreciate all your lovely comments and messages even when I don't get the chance to respond (I'm reading them).<br />
Kiss Kiss<br />
CAR<br />
P.S. More soon<br />
P.P.S. I hope your 2009 is the GREATEST yetUpdate of Carmellanesstag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-11-19:2022678:BlogPost:1655912008-11-19T21:53:38.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
I've started working that night job. Wednesday, Thursday, Friday. I have to switch back to days by Monday for Clinicals that's always fun.<br />
School is going ok, although I feel like giving up on the regular.<br />
I wish I cold make enough money to buy a new pair of jeans and go to the spa for a day, even a half day.<br />
I turned 28 and my good friend has the same b-day (she turned 21) so we threw her a surprise party.<br />
I'll put up some pictures.
I've started working that night job. Wednesday, Thursday, Friday. I have to switch back to days by Monday for Clinicals that's always fun.<br />
School is going ok, although I feel like giving up on the regular.<br />
I wish I cold make enough money to buy a new pair of jeans and go to the spa for a day, even a half day.<br />
I turned 28 and my good friend has the same b-day (she turned 21) so we threw her a surprise party.<br />
I'll put up some pictures.It's a long way to the top if you want to rock and roll...tag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-10-08:2022678:BlogPost:1369952008-10-08T16:14:58.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
Thanks everyone who's been sending me comments and messages. I haven't forgotten about you I've just had to "back burner" alopecia world for a bit.<br />
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UPDATE<br />
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What's been going on in the life of Carmella? Hmmmm.... Well my kids started school which was a big adjustment for everyone and that went well. Then I started school and it was going really awesome, right until the third day. On the third day my landlady gave us thirty days to vacate the property. Now at first I thought my husband was just…
Thanks everyone who's been sending me comments and messages. I haven't forgotten about you I've just had to "back burner" alopecia world for a bit.<br />
<br />
UPDATE<br />
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What's been going on in the life of Carmella? Hmmmm.... Well my kids started school which was a big adjustment for everyone and that went well. Then I started school and it was going really awesome, right until the third day. On the third day my landlady gave us thirty days to vacate the property. Now at first I thought my husband was just joking - we've never paid late, missed a month, or had a complaint in the year that we've lived here. But then I realized he wasn't. She wouldn't give us a reason why she wouldn't answer her phone AND she waited until after college started meaning there are nearly zero rentals, espeacially ones that take pets. It kind of felt like the year I got here only now I have my kids with me so I can't just live in my car for the next six months. *SCREAM*<br />
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I found a place though. It's quite a bit more money so I'll be taking a night job, two or three nights a week to make sure we can afford life. So there's that. It's a really nice place though and priced well for what it has to offer.<br />
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On the upside it's not a duplex so I don't have to worry about my neighbors anymore.<br />
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On the down side my husband is five hours away training for his job and I have to move us because I don't have any friends or family around *shrugg*<br />
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Oh well I better get too it, the sooner I get out of here the more money she has to refund me.<br />
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Have a beautiful day all!<br />
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Kiss Kiss,<br />
CARWhat I'm going to do - even if it can't change thingstag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-09-11:2022678:BlogPost:1189722008-09-11T23:09:03.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
So I ready this article earlier about Dale Platts (Thanks for bringing it to my attention Angela). This was the link I saw<br />
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-1053490/Boy-13-bullied-losing-hair-banned-wearing-baseball-cap-school.html<br />
but I found it on BBC news with a video too and found it to be even more touching in motion with audio.<br />
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At any rate my children (now in third and fourth grade) are getting questions about their mom at school now. I explained this story to them and they're…
So I ready this article earlier about Dale Platts (Thanks for bringing it to my attention Angela). This was the link I saw<br />
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-1053490/Boy-13-bullied-losing-hair-banned-wearing-baseball-cap-school.html<br />
but I found it on BBC news with a video too and found it to be even more touching in motion with audio.<br />
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At any rate my children (now in third and fourth grade) are getting questions about their mom at school now. I explained this story to them and they're DISGUSTED!<br />
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So I'll be speaking with the teachers to arrange a time for me to speak with each class about alopecia and hopefully share the story of Dale Platts. My ulitimate goal is for my kids and their fellow students to express their thoughts on this injustice, in their own words and writting, to mail to his school.<br />
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Check it out - I'll keep you posted.<br />
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CAR<br />
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P.S. Although I have not yet contacted the school I have contacted several companies that sell baseball caps with inquires as to what it would take to purchase enough caps for the students and make it an addition to the school uniform.<br />
P.P.S. I have always demanded that people not discriminate against me, as I would not do to them, so I beg of you if you have even a moment for this cause stand up.Good day alltag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-09-05:2022678:BlogPost:1145002008-09-05T19:06:32.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
Thanks for those of you who commented/read my blogs, especially for not throwing stones as my complaining and venting had nothing to do with alopecia, here on my alopecia profile. At any rate. I'm going to be just fine. While I can not see the future I know that I will always protect my children, thanks to all of you who pointed out who foolish I was acting. I actually was unable to sleep because I couldn't stop planning for today. I wish I had logged on sooner ... maybe then I would not have…
Thanks for those of you who commented/read my blogs, especially for not throwing stones as my complaining and venting had nothing to do with alopecia, here on my alopecia profile. At any rate. I'm going to be just fine. While I can not see the future I know that I will always protect my children, thanks to all of you who pointed out who foolish I was acting. I actually was unable to sleep because I couldn't stop planning for today. I wish I had logged on sooner ... maybe then I would not have forgotten to pack the boys lunch. OH well, they're the only kids who got BK kids meals today so I'm sure they loved it.<br />
Incase anyone wondered. I went did give my mother in law the money. Perhaps, afterall, I was just so upset because my mother would never ask me for money, particularly knowing I'm a unemployed student. At any rate. I feeling far less angry, bitter, crazy and hopeless and much more numb now.<br />
Heart<br />
CARPost Scripttag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-09-05:2022678:BlogPost:1141652008-09-05T03:09:33.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
you know what makes it even worse!? I spent all day doing extra cleaning, taking care of the kids needs and I even gave myself a facial and did my makeup extra sultury for when he came home... and now it's smeared with tears and he wouldn't care anyway.<br />
I HATE MY LIFE
you know what makes it even worse!? I spent all day doing extra cleaning, taking care of the kids needs and I even gave myself a facial and did my makeup extra sultury for when he came home... and now it's smeared with tears and he wouldn't care anyway.<br />
I HATE MY LIFEIt all started....tag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-09-05:2022678:BlogPost:1141512008-09-05T03:02:56.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
It started with him forgeting to kiss me when he got out of the car. Soon he was spending a couple of nights a week on the couch "so as not to wake me because he couldn't sleep". The next thing I know he's going out for drinks until two am in the morning with 'people from work'. We've never done anything apart in over three years of marriage (I'm not saying this is a good thing) in fact he demanded I cut contact with every friend I've ever had and I complied :(<br />
Now he wants 500 dollars to go to…
It started with him forgeting to kiss me when he got out of the car. Soon he was spending a couple of nights a week on the couch "so as not to wake me because he couldn't sleep". The next thing I know he's going out for drinks until two am in the morning with 'people from work'. We've never done anything apart in over three years of marriage (I'm not saying this is a good thing) in fact he demanded I cut contact with every friend I've ever had and I complied :(<br />
Now he wants 500 dollars to go to his crazy ass mom, but don't tell anybody Car. Why not? Where is it really going, your girlfriends rent? His mom just put 23,000 down on a car and three months later paid it off, yeah she needs my kids school clothes money alright.<br />
Worst of all - almost ALL of this communication has been in text messaging AND tonight he knows there is a problem. A serious problem, I'm about ready to walk out of this marriage and never look back, but does he come home after work? No, he's going to go have some drinks with his buddys.<br />
I'm exceptionally suicidal tonight.<br />
So now the tears are coming and go ahead and laugh, that doesn't matter to me anymore.<br />
CARGET THIS!!!tag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-08-25:2022678:BlogPost:1054432008-08-25T22:47:52.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
So my school was being sued for years and recently they lost. Some doctors screwed up six years ago and the families of the patients sued and won. So what do they do? Raise the nursing student's tuition! Yeah, good idea. We don't have a nursing shortage and the nurses were the one's who screwed up after all so put it on them (heavy sarcasm). Anyway 2000 a term = 6000 more a year and I have to figure something out.<br />
Then this wonderful scholarship presents itself. I'm stoked it's 5000 a year for…
So my school was being sued for years and recently they lost. Some doctors screwed up six years ago and the families of the patients sued and won. So what do they do? Raise the nursing student's tuition! Yeah, good idea. We don't have a nursing shortage and the nurses were the one's who screwed up after all so put it on them (heavy sarcasm). Anyway 2000 a term = 6000 more a year and I have to figure something out.<br />
Then this wonderful scholarship presents itself. I'm stoked it's 5000 a year for the last two years of school and the requirements are tight but I fit them. So I go up against only two other students (both friends of mine).<br />
Today I find out that I didn't make the cut and they will be interviewing against each other for it next week. Here's the thing that really gets me. They are both married in two income households without kids. I am married, but in a single income household with two kids.<br />
So why didn't I make the cut you must be wondering. Well let me tell you then. I get more financial aid money than they do (which still doesn't cover tuition now) for two reasons<br />
First - I have kids.<br />
Second - They both have Bachelors degrees in other fields (I don't).<br />
Also they've told me before that their parents help them out financially. Well that's great for them and all but I don't speak to my father (haven't in years) and my mother can't help me out (she would if she could).<br />
So thanks a lot fucked up system, now I'm probably going to have to take a leave of absence for a year.<br />
XOXO<br />
CAR<br />
P.S. I seriously cried about this when I found out and I haven't cried since God knows when.<br />
P.P.S. I applied for a job up at the hospital today that would help make up the difference in tuition if I got it so please say a pray for me.Master Cleanse day Four and a halftag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-08-25:2022678:BlogPost:1052592008-08-25T18:46:19.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
So Day three went pretty well. I wasn't hungry at all, stayed busy with house work and preparing for school, and felt pretty great. I didn't post because I was so busy and I really had nothing to report. The laxative tea that night however didn't work more than to give me a bit of a stomach ache for a short period. The next day (yesterday) however was a bit more difficult. You see my husband had the day off and we pretty much were lounging around ... we went fishing in the morning and the…
So Day three went pretty well. I wasn't hungry at all, stayed busy with house work and preparing for school, and felt pretty great. I didn't post because I was so busy and I really had nothing to report. The laxative tea that night however didn't work more than to give me a bit of a stomach ache for a short period. The next day (yesterday) however was a bit more difficult. You see my husband had the day off and we pretty much were lounging around ... we went fishing in the morning and the evening ... but we spent a too much time in front of the television (watching movies is his favorite pastime - and he wants me to do it with him) and by 530 PM I was to week to resist the Chicken tamale in the fridge so I ate it. The spiciness was so good that I then endulged with some boneless hot wings.<br />
Now you would think that this would give me a stomach ache or that I would be in pain or something. But no - nothing - and in fact the tea was ineffective AGAIN! So how is it that I'm supposed to be cleansing here???? I'm not sure exactly.<br />
I'm not going to let one little slip up knock me off course however and I'm back on the cleanse this morning. Now I must go and work out or clean or something, before I get to thinking about food too much.<br />
XOXO<br />
CAR<br />
P.S. I started at 137 lbs and am down to 131.8 if anyone was interested.Master Cleanse Day Twotag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-08-22:2022678:BlogPost:1036992008-08-22T21:33:09.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
Still not hungry, surprisingly. The maple syrup I make the lemonade with has all the calories that I need for a day so I guess that's why. I have a bit of a head ache this afternoon, but that isn't out of the ordinary for me. I have however, registrared my kids for school, found a doctor for my son to see on Monday, delivered my husband lunch at work, canceled memberships I don't use, went to the bank and replaced my husbands Debit card (he left his in the ATM) and paid a dozen bills at least.…
Still not hungry, surprisingly. The maple syrup I make the lemonade with has all the calories that I need for a day so I guess that's why. I have a bit of a head ache this afternoon, but that isn't out of the ordinary for me. I have however, registrared my kids for school, found a doctor for my son to see on Monday, delivered my husband lunch at work, canceled memberships I don't use, went to the bank and replaced my husbands Debit card (he left his in the ATM) and paid a dozen bills at least. This is more than I can say I've done in weeks in only half a day. Now I'm off to shower and do some laundry and dishes.<br />
I'll be sure to report tomorrow.<br />
XOXO<br />
CARMaster Cleansetag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-08-21:2022678:BlogPost:1029832008-08-21T18:08:04.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
Today is my first day of this 'Master Cleanse' (if anyone has heard of/tried it). I've been losing intrest in everything and gaining weight (nearly 20 lbs in 3 weeks) suddenly. I've always had chronic pain, that I self medicate with alcohol, as long as I can remember. So I've decided today to begin the cleanse - afterall having not missed a day to drink in seven plus years I think the toxins might need some help to get out. Plus I hear your energy will increase and lord knows I could use…
Today is my first day of this 'Master Cleanse' (if anyone has heard of/tried it). I've been losing intrest in everything and gaining weight (nearly 20 lbs in 3 weeks) suddenly. I've always had chronic pain, that I self medicate with alcohol, as long as I can remember. So I've decided today to begin the cleanse - afterall having not missed a day to drink in seven plus years I think the toxins might need some help to get out. Plus I hear your energy will increase and lord knows I could use that.<br />
So wish me luck!<br />
Car<br />
P.S. I'd love to hear from you - if you've done this and have stories/advice etc - or just for support.San Francisco Ventingtag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-08-14:2022678:BlogPost:982922008-08-14T18:41:07.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
I spent the last six days in SF. My husband grew up there and we had an ... alright time. I felt like we spent hours just driving around and trying to make other people happy. I didn't notice anyone with alopecia. I did notice that not a single person gave me a sideways look. The whole time I wished we were back in SLO, but his mother cried and then we ended up there. For a six day holiday it wasn't bad though really the only thing that sucked was his mom throwing a fit that the kids and I were…
I spent the last six days in SF. My husband grew up there and we had an ... alright time. I felt like we spent hours just driving around and trying to make other people happy. I didn't notice anyone with alopecia. I did notice that not a single person gave me a sideways look. The whole time I wished we were back in SLO, but his mother cried and then we ended up there. For a six day holiday it wasn't bad though really the only thing that sucked was his mom throwing a fit that the kids and I were there.<br />
Honestly in all the time that I've lived my family has one time asked to see me seprately from my husband and this woman yelled, cried and demanded that he leave his family in SF (not our hometown) to spend time with her alone. -She has always hated me ... damn white skin and low income. Still the ONE time was my brother who was acting like a damn racist fool and I have not seen, spoken to, or heard/asked about since (May 2006).<br />
CAR<br />
P.S. Has anyone else though WtF? when they've visited SF lately. Seriously so many of the things I've loved before a gone or broken and the zoo is a JOKE!Have you ever felt like....tag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-08-06:2022678:BlogPost:938092008-08-06T00:34:03.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
Like you talk to much, you're too whiny or you should just shut up because you're not going to be understood anyway? I do. I do a lot allegedly. Today is the first day that I notice the 'featured blog link' and I clicked it - then there it was ... one of my own blogs (from earlier today). A blog that I debated over writing. I blog that I almost didn't post. A blog that I felt was overly touchy feely, unnecessary, and would certainly do no good. A blog that one way or another became…
Like you talk to much, you're too whiny or you should just shut up because you're not going to be understood anyway? I do. I do a lot allegedly. Today is the first day that I notice the 'featured blog link' and I clicked it - then there it was ... one of my own blogs (from earlier today). A blog that I debated over writing. I blog that I almost didn't post. A blog that I felt was overly touchy feely, unnecessary, and would certainly do no good. A blog that one way or another became 'featured'.<br />
I'm touched. I was touched by the heartfelt responses to begin with.<br />
Thank you all so very much for taking time to be a part of this wonderful community. I hope that sometime I have the right thing to say for some of you.<br />
Much love,<br />
Lil' CARUnusal problem for this site, but please help if you can....tag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-08-05:2022678:BlogPost:933992008-08-05T17:49:58.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
So I'm sitting on the floor watching a movie with the three boys (including dad) on the couch, when my youngest son says "nice hair mom!" and runs his hand softly over my head. "I don't have hair" I replied and he responded "Yes you do" - that light brush over my scalp did feel kind of weird... I went to the bathroom to check it out and sure enough I have random, sparse hairs growing on my scalp, a few eyelashes and several armpit hairs (those I noticed this morning due to the poking…
So I'm sitting on the floor watching a movie with the three boys (including dad) on the couch, when my youngest son says "nice hair mom!" and runs his hand softly over my head. "I don't have hair" I replied and he responded "Yes you do" - that light brush over my scalp did feel kind of weird... I went to the bathroom to check it out and sure enough I have random, sparse hairs growing on my scalp, a few eyelashes and several armpit hairs (those I noticed this morning due to the poking sensation).<br />
Now I hate to seem like I'm complaining about this, on most days anyone of us would trade a kidney to just feel normal again. But here are some of my problems.<br />
1- "WTF? Is this a joke?, I'm sure it will be gone next week." Is running through my head.<br />
2- I'd like to cover my head in the sun but the feeling of a bandana on these tiny hairs is annoying.<br />
3- "Wait a second! I AM the bald girl ... if my hair grows back will I have to build a new identity?"<br />
4- I wish that my kids didn't have their poor little hopes up so high over it (no one in my family is as tough as me)<br />
5- Should I shave it or buzz it? Maybe just get the sunburn?<br />
Thanks for listening I know I probably seem like a jerk, but honestly I would hope for everyone of you to get your hair back before myself or at least all my fellow alopecians who want it more.<br />
Heart<br />
CARTired Tired Tiredtag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-08-04:2022678:BlogPost:928232008-08-04T17:36:08.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
It seems like my husband and I have just been so tired of all the crappiness in life and just given up on pretty much everything. I came up with a great idea this morning though and I think it will get us back on track. He seems pretty excited too. We're going to start a business together!! Yeah us. It will probably take a while to get it going, but it will be fun having something worth while to work on together, rather than just the usual work on nursing alone - go to work to support student…
It seems like my husband and I have just been so tired of all the crappiness in life and just given up on pretty much everything. I came up with a great idea this morning though and I think it will get us back on track. He seems pretty excited too. We're going to start a business together!! Yeah us. It will probably take a while to get it going, but it will be fun having something worth while to work on together, rather than just the usual work on nursing alone - go to work to support student nurse wife alone.<br />
XOXO<br />
CAR<br />
P.S. Thanks for the support and advice everyone.Somebody has to be the hero...tag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-07-22:2022678:BlogPost:853642008-07-22T14:37:28.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
You know when your relationship starts to slip a little. You can feel the distance between you growing and tension rising. It's not like nobody notices, but rather that no one is doing anything about it. I'm tired, I feel like I'm all on my own and I've been playing the hero for too long.<br />
XOXO<br />
CAR
You know when your relationship starts to slip a little. You can feel the distance between you growing and tension rising. It's not like nobody notices, but rather that no one is doing anything about it. I'm tired, I feel like I'm all on my own and I've been playing the hero for too long.<br />
XOXO<br />
CARThanks to everyone who was so sweet.tag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-07-12:2022678:BlogPost:798062008-07-12T22:03:29.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
The responses to my last blog were so nice and I really appreciate the calming effect they had. I'm sure that I'm still slightly nuts, but at least everything has worked out in the end and I can breath easy again.<br />
Love you all<br />
CAR
The responses to my last blog were so nice and I really appreciate the calming effect they had. I'm sure that I'm still slightly nuts, but at least everything has worked out in the end and I can breath easy again.<br />
Love you all<br />
CARSo pissed at myself right now!tag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-07-11:2022678:BlogPost:784792008-07-11T00:41:59.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
Can you believe it - I would completely over react AND assume?! Well I did and I can't take it back. So sorry to anyone who thinks I'm trying to start drama. I'm not, but I'll go soon if it would make you feel better.<br />
XOXO<br />
CAR
Can you believe it - I would completely over react AND assume?! Well I did and I can't take it back. So sorry to anyone who thinks I'm trying to start drama. I'm not, but I'll go soon if it would make you feel better.<br />
XOXO<br />
CARHaven't seen her sincetag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-07-10:2022678:BlogPost:783782008-07-10T21:45:26.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
But I'm still losing my mind.... I have so very many things that come to mind to say right now... best be quite.<br />
<br />
XOXO<br />
CAR
But I'm still losing my mind.... I have so very many things that come to mind to say right now... best be quite.<br />
<br />
XOXO<br />
CARIs it just me?tag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-06-29:2022678:BlogPost:708952008-06-29T00:30:00.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
It seems like I'm so comfortable being the bald girl... my self image completely identifies with that, but it's every other tiny little thing that is driving me nuts. That little mole, the width of my fingers, my second toe is longer than my first, HEY is one breast smaller than the other? If there is anything wrong I can find it ... "drop ten pounds CAR - no better make it 20, LOVE - CAR". I think I'm starting to lose it.<br />
Hope you're all far less crazy than I am<br />
XOXO<br />
CAR
It seems like I'm so comfortable being the bald girl... my self image completely identifies with that, but it's every other tiny little thing that is driving me nuts. That little mole, the width of my fingers, my second toe is longer than my first, HEY is one breast smaller than the other? If there is anything wrong I can find it ... "drop ten pounds CAR - no better make it 20, LOVE - CAR". I think I'm starting to lose it.<br />
Hope you're all far less crazy than I am<br />
XOXO<br />
CARIt happened again.tag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-06-26:2022678:BlogPost:690462008-06-26T04:28:57.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
I went to the store to return a movie to one of those movie vending machines and I saw her again. She was coming out with her kids and S.O. and I was getting out of the car (that my S.O. was driving with the kids in the back). I wanted to say something or wave, but I just smiled. Time seemed to move too slow and both families appeared to be staring into the bizaro world of each other.<br />
<br />
Sigh<br />
CAR
I went to the store to return a movie to one of those movie vending machines and I saw her again. She was coming out with her kids and S.O. and I was getting out of the car (that my S.O. was driving with the kids in the back). I wanted to say something or wave, but I just smiled. Time seemed to move too slow and both families appeared to be staring into the bizaro world of each other.<br />
<br />
Sigh<br />
CARThanks to all the replies on my last blogtag:alopeciaworld.com,2008-06-14:2022678:BlogPost:616372008-06-14T14:50:37.000ZCarmellahttps://alopeciaworld.com/profile/Carmella
Great responses from all really. I just wanted to clear up that even more stunning (to me at least) was the fact that we both are AU. I wonder if she was just passing through?<br />
XOXO<br />
GIA
Great responses from all really. I just wanted to clear up that even more stunning (to me at least) was the fact that we both are AU. I wonder if she was just passing through?<br />
XOXO<br />
GIA