Going through AA taught me a lot. One of the biggest lessons (although I already knew this---guess I need a reminder sometimes) was that I am not the center of the universe.
Who would have thought I wasn't?!?!??!
I'm just kidding. ;-)
Well anyway, despite what you're going through in life, it really only matters the most to you (because it's happening to you). Everyone else is going through their own struggles. Kind of like.... people aren't always concerned about how they feel about you. They are probably more concerned with maybe how you feel about them or better yet, how they feel about themselves.
There are people in this world going through all kinds of different things right now. Divorce, death, disease, etc. It's inevitable.
You may think you bear the world on your shoulders... but really, your burdens aren't even a drop in the bucket when compared with the weight of the whole big bad world.
The world doesn't necessarily care about you or what your going through.
You and the people who love you are the only ones who really care.
I never mind answering questions about my "condition." I think I've entered into the "acceptance" stage, but I struggle with my self worth/esteem as much as the next guy. I think being insecure is a fundamental part about being human except some people are better at masking it.
Sometimes I have someone try to be "nice" and they say something that comes off a little different to me.
I've had people say things like, "I feel so bad for you. I don't know how you deal with that. I would just FREAK."
I smile because I realize that they are just trying to be nice or honest or whatever. Although, a statement like that is pretty ridiculous, especially because staying at home and freaking out and feeling sorry for myself about my "condition" 100% percent of the time is totally in option..... not the one I want, anyway.
In my head, a snarky voice pops up and says, "I DON'T KNOW. HOW DO YOU DEAL WITH BEING UGLY ALL THE TIME? IF I WERE YOU AND I LOOKED LIKE YOU, I WOULD JUST FREAK, TOO. IN FACT, IF I WERE AS DUMB AS YOU, I'D PROBABLY JUST DIE."
But instead, knowing I am not the center of the universe and perhaps I'm projecting a little, I just smile the condescending smile of Buddha.