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Shaved my head 2 days ago!
I've had Alopecia for close to 20 years but up until now I really only dealt with hiding spots, being slightly embarrassed when I went swimming, and having severe hatred for wind/rain/snow. I'm a pretty confident person and pretty comfortable with my Alopecia but I shaved my head two days ago and I feel like I am on a roller coaster of emotions.
I made a pretty big fuss about the whole thing. My friends and I had a "farewell to my hair" dinner. It was awesome!! We all shared pictures of our bad hair over the years. I made mention of big changes coming for me this year on Facebook a few weeks ago and last week I shared the whole story with close friends and "facebook friends." Pretty much everyone that I know knew what I was planning to do. And then the big day came! I finally found a wig I was comfortable with. I went with a monofilament wig, slightly darker than my regular hair. It's synthetic but I plan to get a human hair wig in the near future. I just wanted to test the waters before I jumped in to a bigger investment.
I picked my kids up from school, brought them home and ate some lunch, then we all shaved my head together. It was very empowering! I have been annoyed in my dealing with Alopecia for so long and I was happy to be done. I spent all of yesterday out and about with my kids and all in all the wig wasn't too bad. It ITCHES LIKE CRAZY but I think I'm hoping I'll just get used to it. I felt pretty comfortable in the wig but I do need it cut a little shorter. I don't feel like the wig shifted at all but I do think I might feel a little safer with some tape or glue. There's so much to learn!!!
Anyway today I am struggling just a little bit with the fact that I will have to deal with this for the rest of my life. It's a very bizarre feeling. I kinda want my hair back, no matter how thin. Ughhh I didn't anticipate these feelings. I'm thinking about the strangest things. I have always been very plain but suddenly I feel like I should start wearing makeup to feel more feminine. I feel like I should lose weight in case I decide to ditch the wig. I feel like you can only pull that look off if you're thin. I should have known there would be strange feelings but I didn't really think about it. Please tell me this is all normal!!!
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Permalink Reply by Destiny on
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The wig felt much better today. Of course then it made me feel nervous that I won't feel it slipping or something. I'm thinking maybe I should use some glue or tape. Ughhhh so much to learn!!
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Permalink Reply by michelle on
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As Aimee, I love that you made a big deal. It IS a big deal. A fairwell dinner is a great idea. I have AU and only for the last 3 years (I am 51). I shared a lot of my process of losing my hair and finally going bald on Facebook. It actually made the process much easier.
Like you I find all wigs uncomfortable and itchy. I had no luck with liners. Anything on my head bothers me so I choose to go bald. I wear hats outside because of the cold...and it is cold here in Toronto.
thanks for sharing:)
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Permalink Reply by MJ Wrick on
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I just ordered my first lace front and some tape- very excited to try out something without the heavy bangs! Given that & my 13-year-old son's never ending bald and alien jokes I should be insane in no time, lol. (Then he uses my wigs & 3D glasses to do Wayne's World imitations). It's good to be able to laugh and smile given the alternatives....
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Permalink Reply by Cindie on
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It's normal. I shaved my head years ago when I couldn't stand the patchy, ugly spots, and started wearing wigs. I continue to shave my head. It was very difficult at first, but as time went on, I liked it MUCH better than my "ugly, patchy scalp."
Try wearing a wig cap to see if that helps the wig from "shifting", before you try glue or tape. Sometimes people have allergic reactions to glue and/or tape, which makes itching worse.
And best of luck to you.
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