Where acceptance is all there is
I was just diagnosed with alopecia and am in need for support. I lost all my hair except for my eyelashes so far and a sprout of hair on my head that will most likely be gone soon. This all happened over 9 weeks. The doctors feel that there is other underlying conditions not yet diagnosed yet, so I will going to doctors #6 and 7 this week. I don't mind all the tests and appointments, but I am trying really hard to deal with my new look.
I lost my brother as a child to cancer and that experience changed my life. For the last 10 years I have always been positive and the support for others. When anyone asked how I could always be so positive and see the best no matter what, I responded with " it could always be worse!" I now feel like a closet hypocrite. I put on a happy face then feel sadness when alone. I know it's just hair and looks are not everything, but it all changes when you are faced with this.
The hardest part is work. I have clients who have always commented on my hair. I even had a gentlemen who would not come back for his appointment because I changed my hair color. He waited a year to come in until I changed my color back. Many clients ask if I have cancer and some don't want to reschedule with me. It is hurting my career.
I bought a wig for work but it gave my neck a scratchy rash. I went shopping for one that I can wear for everyday use that keeps my neck covered and warm without a rash. WOW! $1000! I already spend $500 and I can only wear it until I get the rash.
Does anyone have a line on getting wigs for under a grand? I am looking for a place I can try them on or return if I don't like them. The hardest part is looking in the mirror and feeling connected to what is looking back at you. That is a very surreal concept I am learning about. I guess I'll f I had eyebrows it wouldn't be so hard.
My kids are worried so I don't go without a hat around them. If they were older it would be different but I need to be ok with it before I can expect them to understand.
I realize I may never have hair again and will live a great life without it, but for now I just need some confidence to get me over that hump.
Thank you for any one who reads this or responds.