I just want to say that, out of the millions of pictures on here, you are all absolutely beautiful.

I had an extremely traumatizing experience a few days ago. A very dear friend of mine. A lady who, many years ago, used to babysit me and my sisters became ill. She has been in a care facility for a number of years but this was far worse. She was in pain, losing weight rapidly. She was approximately 5ft 8in and by the end weighed approximately 75 lbs. I had the horrible experience of going to see her, while on her death bed. Hours before she passed away on Thursday morning. I loved her with all of my heart but I truly believe that in the end she no longer wanted to live. Dont get me wrong when I am saying all of this because if I had it to do over I would go see her again. I got a chance to say goodbye and let her know how much I loved her but it got me thinking, once again how precious life really is. Part of the traumatizing part is how she looked, and part of it was how helpless that I felt, and the biggest part is that she has two children, a girl and a boy that she adopted from a very young age and has raised them and done everything that she can to provide a wonderful life for them, and neither one of them were there with her while she was in this condition. Her son was called at 10 am to inform him of what was happening and he showed up at 5 pm, saying that he had to work and couldnt get out of it. Sorry, but if it was my mother, I would have been there no matter what the situation. When he got there, he was laughing and joking around and didnt even seem to care about any of it.

I have been having a horrible time with my wigs recently, not sitting properly, it came off while I was at a bridal shower the other day, we were playing a game that you had to be blindfolded and when I took off the blind fold my wig came too. I grabbed it, ran out of the room into the bathroom to put it back on and collect myself and then join the party like nothing ever happened. No one said anything and I didnt offer anything up. I talked to the bride and a few close friends after and explained why I am wearing my wig as this was the first time any of them had seen me in it and I wasnt without it for long enough for any of them to see all the patches underneath. I guess what I am trying to get to is that although I have been thinking a lot about my wigs and how horrible all of this is, I think of the condition my friend was in when I saw her, and realize that it really isnt all that bad.

Should I mention, the day that all of this happened, I also got a speeding ticket for $80. Anyways, I think I have rambled enough, just wanted to get some thoughts off my chest. Thanks all for reading/listening.